So, to get everyone up to speed... I was diagnosed with colorectal cancer on 5/25/07. I was 37 when I was diagnosed. It was first thought to be a stage 1 or stage 2 cancer (meaning 60% to 80% survivable). But, after some additional tests, they found nodules (spots) in my lungs as well. This means that the disease had metastisized and it now meant that I had stage 4 cancer (stage 4 means 0% chance of survival). I had my first surgery on my birthday 8/24/07 to get rid of the tumor in the colon and the surgery was a success! I no longer have any cancer in that part of my body, but it's the nodules in my lungs (the doctor's call them nodules) that still remain. They are very small, and they are in both lungs. There is also so many that they can't count them - so they are inoperable. I was told that someone in my condition generally has 2 1/2 to 3 years to live... but I was NOT told that time frame pertained to me - that it was only statistical and that my young age would work in my favor. I have been receiving chemotherapy for 3 1/2 years now. I have it everyother week for approx 5 months and then I generally get approx 3 months off to let my body recuperate. For the first 2 to 2 1/2 years I would bounce back fairly quickly from the side effects of the chemotherapy, but lately it has been getting more difficult for me to get right back into a normal routine after receiving treatment for months on end. My body is just taking a beating. The doctors say that my bone marrow is saturated with the chemotherapy drugs and that is the reason why I am slower to recover than I used to be.
I had to take a year off after my first surgery... (it wasn't supposed to be a year - but some complications and an additional surgery in January of 2008 made it that long). Went back to work in August of 2008 and worked until December of 2009, but I have been on disability leave since then. I have recently been blessed with Social Security disability benefits and don't believe I will be returning back to work unless by some miracle, my disease vanishes as mysteriously as it appeared. Yes, my disease is a bit of a mystery to the doctors. When I started getting ill and got in to the doctor, I was concerned that I had colon cancer due to the symptoms I had been having... I was told by a Gastro-Interologist that there was a "less than 1% chance" that I had colon cancer due to my not having any family history of the disease... But here I sit today suffering from it. It is unknown whether I had the spots in my lungs first, or the tumor in the colon came first, but at this point, it doesn't really matter... we don't look back, we enjoy the day at hand and make the best of it. Oh yeah, I could go on & on about all kinds of little things that happened in the last 3 1/2 years due to this disease, but this is the main story and I am trying to keep it simple.
As for where I am today... as I stated earlier, I had to give up on my hope of returning back to work. I LOVED MY JOB and the people I worked with. Everyone from my co-workers, to vendors, to customers. It was so hard for me to think about giving up 20 years of my hard work at my employer. They have been absolutely wonderful to me. Everything from cleaning my house, to cooking me & my family dinners, driving my children to their activities, participating in activities... EVEN YARD WORK. Free room air conditioners to help me with hot flashes, and being there at all hours of the day and night for moral support. I cannot thank all of them enough for all the wonderful things they have done for me and my family. My family has also been fantastic! Supporting me every step of the way and being patient with some of the "speed bumps" we have encountered along the way. That is one thing I will say about the disease... it has given me such a different view of life. I have truly learned to appreciate every moment of everyday and I am very thankful that I have received this view. So I decided in order to get my "business" fix (from missing my job) I would start running my household like a business. I know it's weird, but it helps my mental state A TON! This has really helped me get over my despression about work. Oh yeah, and for all you facebookers... Farmville has been therapy for me. So don't pick on my farming. I work for a little bit around the house, then I need a rest, so I facebook and farm. I love it! Truly theraputic for me. This week I argued with all kinds of medical billing offices about all kinds of erroneous bills, cleaned out my pantry and a couple of kitchen cupboards. Made a complete run to the grocery store (which is hard for me to do at once due to low stamina) and made home made dinners all week. With some help of Derek & his friend Riley. Paul made some French Toast one night and Elle usually helps with the dishes. But, all that will change for next week. I have treatment (chemotherapy) tomorrow so I will be down & in bed for several days this week. Sometimes treatments go smoothly and I can get up & running right off the bat, other times I can be down for almost the entire 2 weeks. I am hoping for a smooth run this week. (I haven't had a smooth treatment yet since I started this latest session - so I'm due for an easy one). This will be my 3rd treatment in this session. The doctors would prefer me to have 10 to 12 treatments before they give me a "chemo-holiday". I don't believe I have made 12 treatments in a session yet. I think the highest I have had is 10. Now that I have this blog up to date, I am going to email all y'all with the address and you can keep up with me. Definitely more to follow. I have so much more I want to share.
